Dark sins disease me…*so you better stay away from me*

Falling through the hollow soul of mine...

The past keeps the perpetual disasters in mind...

The reason I can't breathe through the love you condemned me to believe

Is because it was a lie...that only pained me to be by you're side

If there was a word without a means then it would describe me in everyway

Because I was never meant to be here in the first place...I felt my disgrace...someone please replace this...pain

I have to push hard just too live another day...when a war kills me all I have is flesh and decay...

Please...what is this shadow of horrid growth... how can it be my home... I was left alone....

Separated from myself...

And placed in a narcotic dream called hell...

Every day is a virus ...I don't feel well...

I want too exhale...but all I can do is sell...

Myself...!

A dream of a worldly desire...no one gave me a slice…

My passion destroyed, because it conflicted with others fashions...scams

Does my opinion matter anymore...how many times do I hear death call...?
Not in my mind not in my breath but the stale confetti of a skin horrid lead...

Writing its lies...like I must be feed...everyday...it’s all the same...wouldn't it be nice for a change?
Something new...something with a constraint..? Why do they stare...who the hell cares...if I die today...?

I was never there...extinct from the refuge of my own disease...I know I shouldn't hold it but how can I ignore it when...

it feels me with a sense of greed power and yet the taste is so sour so lost in its guilty plead...its a 360 ratio of a never ending “please help me!”

Some might say perpetual...some might say it was conceptual...but without me...what will it be...a fantasy...non typed biography...? Say what you will about me…

I don't seem to know nothing about the real me...I’m just a shadow that is attached to these skins and oh...it seems...so unreal so wrong I have to kill...it feels so strange...the goal is so out of range that I can't keep up with the pace cause I m so lost in vain and deranged  from the reality I pushed to the point of being insane...when all along I was sane and there normality is nothing but a shame...there the ones in vain there the one's deranged left to be insane always thinking they know the way...no no! I see the paves I see the lines...to the better life...something not out of sight...something I hold deep in mind...not a lie but a truth but still I have no proof cause there always in the way...the nightmares....heh, they won't go away...they cloud my mind and bring me to decay...as close as I get I never get too escape...I m stuck here...left too feel dead...in vain...insane...left too decay...when all along I knew the true way...but they decline...say my views are out of line. I never fit in this life...so suicide is always on my mind...so I hope you understand why I want to die...because no truth only lies exist in this life…